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Lately... my feelings for you growing even more. Idk why but, the feeling feels like when the first time my eyes laid on you years ago. The invisible string theory that we had before, lead us to what made us today. Betul lah kan, our names had written in luh mahfuz million years ago. We may be that strangers before, but qadr lead us through it. I am beyond grateful for this, for you F 💌
Aku rasa terpanggil nak kongsi cerita tentang how we both met? He was, once my highschool crush *blush Yes you read that. Crush. Tapi perasaan itu datang pada akhir3 persekolahan. Waktu tu, ngam3 spm nak datang membuka tirai peperiksaan. I still remembered, back to 2013 masa tu (kalau tak silap) that weekend my batch ada qiyam solat hajat untuk spm & 5vers memang kena attend. The program start late evening i guess, ada program ape entah kat dewan (ingatan samar3) & malam tu all of us (girls) iktikaf di surau, while (boys) di dewan besar sekolah. Aku rasa that time i had told najdah about my feelings toward him. Next early morning ada qiyam & a bit tazkirah pagi. Then semua beransur balik. After that, everytime pergi sekolah my days will be a bit brighter knowing he's around (mind you we are strangers)
Yes we are in the same batch but different classes. Fortunately, we are literally same class during AI (agama islam) sebab memang selalunya AI di surau. hanya waktu sedikit itu je i can take a closer look at him without him knowing *blush again He was the same class with my best friend, Soleha. Everyone knows we are bff, dan aku pun kadang selalu singgah kelas leha untuk gossip & catchin up. After that feeling catchs, knowing pergi jumpa leha is not the same as before. My heart feels butterfly tanpa semena mena hahaha
Then, spm arrived. And the feeling still catchs. A bit moment that i remembered was,
1. Every spm morning, all the 5vers was lining up before entering dewan & that one day i still want to catch his eyes and then boom! He catchs my eyes. Aku terus pandang tempat lain buat3 borak dengan member (lepas kahwin he said he tried to make a smile interaction with me that time, but i rejected hahaha) aku malu doo masa tu
2. I still remembered his spm seat dalam dewan (if not mistaken) It was at the back of the line, 3/4 row from the left dewan. I talk out about this after kahwin, and he shocks that i remembered haha
Spm still going on, but i made first approach to him at facebook. My introvert heart doesn't gear up this time. We finally having online interaction for the very first time, up until before we both pursue study. Then, we lost contact. Little bit i know, he do want to pursue alam but qadr tells him no. He is being a jaybee boy for the past 11 years. I once, being a muadzam shah & bangi girl for 3 years plus, and stay at my roots for now. Alhamdulillah
(2013-2020) 7 years had pass. We both may had other relationships, but it didn't turn out well. We both had broken for years and qadr tells us it is time. We both contact again, after a very long time. I remembered, i was at miss maya's house gathering for bts online concert he did message me for the first time (before this, he was only poke me & wish me only on occusion such as birthday / raya) but, this time is different. And the rest is memory...
It was a mind blowing story of mine & him (well at least for me) Just thinking about that, my heart still feels butterfly. It was beyond my plan. Indeed, god's plan are the best for us. I hope this marriage, stay the same as marriage couple should. I hope we both kekal sihat, bertenaga & being a friendly parent to our kids. And i do hope we both loves each other until grey & old, because that what my hearts tell me to.
I love you, F from my deep heart ♥️
And i can finally say that, i married my highschool crush.